You know what you should be doing.

Ever had those days when you know exactly what you should be doing, but all your body wants to do is stay in bed and play Civilization II? Ok, maybe you should insert whatever your body does to relax in that last part, and you got my meaning.

It is 10:25am on a Saturday, and I am still in bed. My husband woke up for long enough to grab his glasses and his laptop, and then fell asleep again (with the glasses on and the laptop on his chest). Me? I didn’t go back to sleep. There are so many things I should be doing instead. Let’s list them:

• Fold 2 tons of laundry
• Go to Bed Bath and Beyond to buy towels (we had to throw all our towels away after we used them to contain the flooding waters… on asbestos flooring)
• Write a paper for Negotiations class
• Write the journals I keep putting off for Negotiations class
• Write a paper for Management Practicum class
• Study for the Management Praticum final
• Clean up the house (looks like a bomb exploded in here)
• Get breakfast

So, what to do? what to do?

Procrastination is a funny thing. I am a rational being, and, as such, I know I will be happier if I get up and accomplish these things systematically. I will be done with them by the end of the day, and I will have a much happier Sunday; however, my fear of wasting my time is paralyzing.

If you look up “Procrastination” online, which I have done many MANY many times while at work, you will find that it’s the reaction to a certain fear: fear of success, fear of failure, etc. I diagnosed my procrastination as “fear of wasting time” back in 2005. In other words, I am afraid that doing one thing will prevent me from doing another, so I end up not doing anything.

Right now, I’m hungry enough to get out of bed and seek nourishment. I better go with that momentum and stop blogging. NOW.

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