I’m having one of those days

[Warning: Stop reading HERE if you’re in a good mood and you’d like to remain that way. This one’s a downer]

You know someone is not in the best state of mind when they tell you “I’m having one of those days.” You’re probably not going to see that phrase accompanied by a smiley face, or followed by “it’s great!” And how do you know that? Because you have been there, too. Someone asks us how we are, and we don’t want to say “sad” or “depressed” or “in desperate need of saving” because that would put too much of a burden on the kind soul who was nice enough to ask in the first place. So we just say “I’m having one of those days.”

It’s raining outside, and it’s having an immensely negative impact on my state of mind. I felt like it was raining even before I got out of bed. I had breakfast, but I was too busy to have lunch until 2:30pm. By then I was so hungry and tired and down that I couldn’t fathom the idea of cooking. I went out and got myself a cheeseless pizza with spinach and onions from Stash’s. I had 4 slices and froze the rest. Why am I telling you about every minute of my day? I don’t know. I guess I just need to put some things out into the world.

I am still planning on going to the gym today. There is an aqua aerobics class tonight, and I want to give it a shot. Even if I still feel down, I will go.

I’m so tired that my eyes just want to close.

How to define it… mmm… let’s see: I am not feeling anxious, though I might be a little depressed. I can’t say I’m depressed unless I feel like crying, and I don’t. I’m definitely down. I could blame it on last night’s dinner, but I don’t want to be such a coward. This happens sometimes, and I need to figure out the fastest way to snap out of it.

Maybe I should just focus on getting some reading done for school, going to the gym, having dinner, buying the ingredients to make Gibb’s Banana Oat Muffins, and just catching up on some sleep. I am dead tired.

It’s hard when these things hit you and you have no idea where they came from. I’m a very fortunate woman and there is no reason for me to feel down. Let’s just wait this one out and try life again tomorrow.

Alright, thanks for reading this far. I’ll hang in there.

ina